i love to act. i don't know what to do.

[thewakinglife]

hey everyone,

i'm a 19 year old that has a passion for the craft that is acting. so far i have done 3 highschool plays (when i was in highschool) and i have done 2 small parts and a cabaret play (some main parts and some minor parts) with a local non-profit youth musical theater company (KYMTC for short).

there is no doubt in my mind that i would not have as much fun with any other job i could decide to do. i've known that i wanted to act (in Film or Theater) for a long while. i remember being about 12-13 and i summed up the courage to ask my mom if she can get me acting lessons and she said that she doesn't know if there is any around our area (i live in a town about 20-30 mins from Ottawa ONT). i remember asking her on two occasions. the issue i have are that i'm not confident enough in my ablities (i don't want sympathy, i just want to tell the actual reasons) in my acting. i feel like i don't bring anythign to the table as in my abilities (i can't dance although i'm trying to learn hip-hop dance and i don't hae the vocal training that my other theater friends have but am tryig to get vocal lessons) from the one full play that i've done, alot of people in the cast told me that i was "really good" but it was only one part in particular. i dunno i just don't feel like i could make a living doing it. don't get me wrong, i am willing to live that lifestyle and i'm willing to constantly try to find work and i love meeting people. i want there is one college program in particular that i want to take that involves acting and directing but you have to audition and i don't feel like i'd even get past the audition.

i also don't have any training or that much experiance. i'm currently looking for an acting teacher that can help young adult beginners in my area (if anyone knows of any in the Ottawa area i would love to hear from me). i want to get alot more training so i can get a grasp of the concept of acting like technique, history, script reading, auditioning, etc,etc. pretty well everything acting related.

i am also really shy about me wanting to become an actor because honestly, i don't look like someone that would want to act. i look like someone that would be in the trades and working a hard labour job so when people ask me what i want to do i usually say "become a mason" or "firefighter" but my heart is in the arts. i'm the 6'0-6'1 guy, wider a little bit of a wider build from the average sized male, darker skin color (i'm portugese canadian) black hair, brown eyes, and i grow facial hair really fast which i'm try to work on. No one knows that this is what i want to do and i'm afraid of the reaction they will give me and tell me that it's a really big mistake i'm making.

all-in-all there are some days where i'm just like "screw this! i want this to be what i do for my life" and other days i'm like "i can't do it" and i feel like i have to make a decision fast because i'm 19 years old and still i'm fighting over what to do. i guess i'm just confused.

thank you very much for reading my long thread and would love to hear your feedback any any stories you may share (i like hearing stories from people haha)

[pocahontas]

We should talk! Send me a message and we could network and share. I couldn't possibly write everything I needed2say2 you here. Lol my aim is ohlalalatina and my yahoo is latinasriver
Those are my screenames..

[lo5t]

Acting is going to be a struggle so dedication is important.. so I hear.

[TelnetCarlos]

I think I was 19 when I wanted to act with no talent whatsoever lol. Your in the perfect position man because at this point you want to get in it. I live in San Diego where supposely I thought would take me less time to get to L.A right? Wrong! What I did to get my feet wet is take a acting class in College and go from there. Then I did some extra work to get some visualization and man after that I started auditioning for short films and student films and got the parts. Then I got an agent in SD and doing commercials and modeling. I have yet to get to L.A and audition for pilot or movie roles.