absolutedesire

If what you mean by 'Sol Deserai' is sole desire, then, Yes it very well does. But I think i need to clarify something about exams. All hurdles can be crossed through hard work but I will not be able to go to the USA with bad results in studies.

To be honest I don't give a Rat's Ass about studies when it comes to Maths etc. But if I want to go to the US then I have to score decently if not very good. But well I don't think it would be a major concern as the major bit should be over by June 2007. And I would be starting Acting in a serious just after this November. You know that is the best I can do because it is not in my hands, but if you do have another solution for me do let me know and as you might have realized I will definately take that seriously.

The US Government is very strict when it comes to allowing people into their country, but thre is one easy way out for me as I am a citizen of Nepal I am allowed to take part in the Green Card Lottery, so I will give it a a try every year.

By the way if you don't mind, you have known me quite a bit but I don't really know the person I am talking to. So if you its OK then why don't you tell me something about yourself?

CosmicD

I tried to hold that back, so as to not frighten you.. because I get such negative response to my ideas and convictions, out there in mankind's hell on earth, in my trying to wake the mindless apes to a little reality.. to give them their reasons to stop destroying my planet.. so there will be some planet left for future humanity... but all my words fall on deaf ears, blind eyes, mindless brains... It seems that humanity is literally devolving into apes...

Since you seem to need an answer, and we are into honesty here.. surf: cosmicb, cosmicbrat, cosmicsparks, dshaman, and donaldj, to discover that I have been banned from forums more often than not.. and you'll discover why I ain't about to set foot on USA America, ever again... It's a wonder they haven't sent someone to murder me... Or.. Maybe that black SUV, and that Texas pickup with fake bullet holes, parked near my home was just that... The Texas truck got seriously scrutinized by police, after I reported them to the RCMP, and to Ottawa SS...
And the two new brand new black SUV's disappeared moments after I presented myself calmly, directly in front of the two short haired American SS dudes.. wearing my polished 9mm S&W auto in my belt.. first two loads being armor piercing, followed by a fistful of NaCn dums.. "oh sigh"... My IR surveylance cams, and sensitive mikes record a lot of silly stuff passing my place... It's almost like going to the movies... I'm ready if they want to play mean... I've got aces they can't even begin to fathom... and they must cease destroying my planet...

Rather than battle hell's monkeys on their own turf.. I'd rather teach honest spirited young people what they are made of.. by removing their blocks, and steering them into their successes... nobody else is.. nobody else can.. nobody else seems to care...

At 14, when asked "what makes you so special?!", I told my elementary school that I was going to win seven nobel prizes.. then they tried everything they could to destroy me, even hired a huge dude to murder me... They totally wrecked my life, and my family.. maybe I can wreck them from damaging others lives... I've seeded on the Internet what will eventually destroy them, as they have destroyed my life and millions of others lives...
Now death is my best friend, that I've yet to fully embrace... I've got my ticket out of your hell on earth, to a place where humans are not welcome, are the bottom of the "foodchain", and haven't the capacity to even begin to navigate....

I'm 59 years old.. look 30's.. act 40's.. feel 20's.. Gutsy and tough as hell... An adult grizzly shebear kissed my azz with respect.. Twice!.. Sometimes 18 year old foxes mistake me for 20's.. and they pinch my bum, in the malls.. It's a treat I do so enjoy... I should have been an actor... I was taking singing lessons, guitar lessons, and drama.. when a huge explosion, in my face, sent me flying 30-feet up/30 feet back, crashing through treetops... The blast took-off two fingertips at the end knuckles.. That was the end of my guitar lessons... An ex-girlfriend had her mindless gorilla chums break my nose.. That was the end of my singing... Seems humanity's hell has intentionally ripped my whole life to shreds, just for fun and sport and their great "god's money", and to stop me from giving them what they need and want... which makes no sense to me..???

I've got about 150 movie scripts started, and perfume ads and legends, and such.. in 20 cases of 75 thousand pages of notes, so deep and condensed, that it takes me to achieve deep trance before I can even begin to understand what I wrote... Visiting and rifling through the cases of notes, is like going to the movies for me... I burn the notes, in the garden, on my 60th.. because all this technology can't fall into the wrong hands unsupervised.. it would be like giving live hand grenades to kids... America modifies everything into people killing tools... Over the years, I've had to burn more technology data than I saved... Can't give this stuff to brats... I cried when I had to burn the thoughts recorder..

Enough of that crap!.. So tell me.. What's your step by step plan to become a great actor..?

Cynthia

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absolutedesire

Hey cosmicD I'm really sorry for the delay but you have to bear with me as I would only be able to post after a couple of days as I have been grounded from the computer for a week only 2 days to go. This post I'm slyly sneaking in.

CosmicD

Well.. you've still got pen and paper...
and if you get grounded from that, there's always charcoal and birchbark... then chisel and rock.. or sticks in hard mud... but recording audio just doesn't work.. it's nearly impossible to edit...
In this topic of writing.. it's a good plan to learn to write with your other hand... I had to, when my hand was in bandage for a whole month... I sure lost my temper a lot in trying to write with the other hand... First time, I flung the pen across the hospital ward room, and it stuck in the wall.. to the extreme dismay of the others in the ward... I had my reasons: I was bored stiff, and sometimes the jolts of extreme pain would suddenly knock me unconscious, like being hit by lightning... I was healing a broken rib, broken wrist, cracked knee, and a hand that looked like it had been hit with a sledge hammer several times... but I still had my humor.. As the orderly was wheeling me from the OR, I asked him, "Is it healed yet?"... I could hear him laughing way down the hall..

Another super good thing to build your intellect, is to take a small electronics course... That will open your mind to a lot more... Find electronics courses at adult training centers...

Being grounded from the PC will give you the time to get writing-up the things you gotta do...

I really want to read the details of your plan to become a great actor.. and your answers to the various questions I asked you...

absolutedesire

Hey cosmicD,

It's absolutely amazing to be back on the net...well I couldn't read your last post until now so I can only do that another time i get grounded .
OK to get directly to the point......I don't believe in having a fixed plan for my career as I believe new opportunities can always have the power to alter them and hence it would end up getting haywire, but still the rough outlook of the idea looks like this-

-I'm in India studying
-Am going to join a acting group in November which i guess to get involved with
-I'm learning Guitar through the internet.....which I guess would always be a plus point plus I love playing it
- I expect to start learning Martial arts as soon as I get a pinch of time in the schedule
- By the fall of 2007 I expect to be heading to the States....and most liekly enroll in one of the academies like Lee Strasberg
- After that I havent yet thought of anythign as it would mean nothing till i actually do everything well......that's your answer.

CosmicD

I'm seeing it as you Need to have a solid plan.. and you need to be spontaneous too...
Without the plan, as your unconscious guide, you will be zooming down a deadend road, with your eyes closed...
Without a plan, is like washing filthy hands without soap and water... You didn't plan on getting dirdy.. and thus failed to bring soap, water, and towel...

You must learn that the mind has a keyboardish kind of a control system.. which you can modify at will... and the body will follow through by physicalizing your plan... or you will be physicalizing a lot of nothing...
Plan is next step from dream... unless you can snap your fingers, and you are here...

The mind is powerful... A person can, "off the cuff" say into the self of all the Being, "I want to "quit smoking, at All costs!"... If that message gets to the mind's controls, it's very likely that that person kills themself, in an accident, to fulfill the request.. given that there was no other viable way for the body, brain, and mind to comply with the command...
The brain is mindless.. it needs your guidance... The mind is an electrical shell around the brain... Most folks haven't ever switched it on.. for taught fears of the unknown...


As far as "new opportunities".. you learn to recognize opportunity in the first couple seconds as it presents... and you learn how to be spontaneous there, where it counts.. with all thrusters firin'... or you'll stumble through life like a dolt...
It's not so much that you're learning "acting", as it is that you are developing your intellect, and your street-smarts... Your plan is your map... The difficulty is to adhere to a plan, when you've got nomadic blood... Nomads have a plan.. as does the scorpion, on the hunt...

Martial Arts is a good plan.. it develops your mind's connections to you and your environment...
Toss a grasshopper into the air... It is too dumb to even open its wings, given that it's flying.. and lands on its face...
Pull five legs off a grasshopper, and tell it to "Jump!", and it will jump...
Pull the last leg off, and tell it to jump.. and it won't jump...
Proof that grasshopper with no legs get deaf...

In Tai Chi, a student might grow a bubble around their head and shoulders, while practicing the Art... Not many know about the "Tai Chi Bubble"... That's what you want to get from Martial Arts...

I managed to stop and restart my heart, by what I learned from the animals.. I hear that's tenth dan... It was as if the critters had a nagging need to teach me all they knew... Often they will scream at me till they have my full attention.. then they teach me how they aquire food... I bow and thank them for the lesson... Sometimes I hear their sounds in english.. it's a rush that I do so enjoy....

In the forest, I bow to the critters I meet, I wave a lightning quick wave, and say "greetings your magesty".. and they approach me, and often touch me... I sense the planet looking at me through their eyes.... When I stare into a wild animal's eyes for about a minute, it opens a dormant segment of my mind for me... Each species opens a different mind segment... Too bad we've extincted most of the good ones... Are you where there is a pristine forest?..

Quickest way to open your whole Being to the universe, is to find a dehydrated, still barely alive, spider, and cradle it in your hand, and beside it, prick your hand with a clean needle, to give the little critter a drink... You can spare the drop... It will give you a million new thoughts... gently touch its back while it's feeding... Black widows permit me to pick them up... I love the critters.. and they know it...

Best plan is that you order as much stuff from "Lee Strasberg Institute" as they will give you, so you can get into it right now... Send them a note, informing them of that part of your "plan"... Inform them that you want to establish the required attitudes before you get there... and cut it there.. don't oversell....

Re: "guitar playing"... I have a little story...
I did a library lecture on "how to get out of the psychic trap"... Three ladies lingered after the lecture... One was a plump little lass, who though I might have what she was searching for... I shared my soul to soul with her, and it came down to she had two options.. become a health care worker for retarded kids.. or take guitar lessons... She couldn't afford guitar strings, so she chose "day care worker"... I handed her the cash for strings... Three years later I sees her on the TV, taking a bunch of music awards...

It's weird.. all those I have pushed into their major success, later treat me like shid... They forget true love so quick... I suppose it's the "gold fever" that gets 'em... This planet and species is so almost totally wrecked.. They've destroyed everything I hold dear... I don't wanna be hear anymore...

absolutedesire

Well you might be right as you are definately more experienced than me.....but I didn't quite get what you exactly wanted to say or now want to hear from me....I just understood the ending and a few things here and there, like-
- People forget you when they become famous.....I won't be dishonest and i won't deny the fact that gold definately is a driving force for many and 'once' it was for me as well but I don't think it exists anymore but who knows it is something more addictive than Cocaine I believe...so only time will tell what happens in these regards....and its really very nice to hear that you chose to help who so ever that guitarist was....
Yeah so ultimately that was what i understood of your last post....back to you

absolutedesire

Well I couldn't help telling you this that in the recent past I have realized that Racism is an excuse that failures give when they cannot make it in whatever they want, thats probably a sly way to hide ones own mistakes.

CosmicD

I cant respond properly when I don't know what stopped you..? You understood a few things here and there... Great!.. so did I...
Mention one item that confused you...


You failed to answer the first two questions at the end of the "roller coaster" post... That be like trying to build a brick structure starting with the top brick...


What made you fear looking at the other bricks..?

C'mon.. there's a great mind in that head... switch it all On, like the dragon is flying and on the hunt while it crashes out of the egg....

Switch it all on.. all your new lessons will come as solutions...
Or you can evolve at the "natural rate"... but that would take four lives to make one full life...

So.. who be your cinema hero?..