SWK78

Many people say that performing or practicing a speech in front of family or friends is easy and a controlled environment. HA! I don't know about those people, but they must be weird. I LOATHE doing either in front of JUST family/friends. It's so much harder. I much prefer doing these and performing in front of people that I don't see everyday, or people that I'll likely never see again, because if all goes well, I won't have to hear their abusing critiques or lame jokes since I'll likely never see them again in my life.

It's much more relaxing doing it for big audiences, too, instead of small ones. Like, I did a presentation in my College English class in high school [about 40 people] and before I got up there I was fine, not nervous at all, but then once I was doint it, my voice and hands were shaking like mad. I hated the whole experience, but in the back of my mind I just kept saying "Just think of it as another performance". That loosened me up a bit, but I still hated it. Not to mention I saw those 40-some people everyday at school on account they are my friends, which made it all the worse. And I got comment cards back too, and two of them said they could tell I was nervous, but I wasn't so I didn't like those comments too much. I don't get overly nervous at all. I don't know what it is. Perhaps it is simply my body being nervous, because in my mind I usually never am.

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